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27th-Apr-2010 02:29 am
travelling, stony
I promised you some doodles, didn't I.


In order to not spend my entire life on this, I restricted myself to a maximum of about 5 minutes for getting something on paper, then maybe another 10 of poking at it in Photoshop to make it colourful. Which is indicative of the quality. I mean, 15 minutes per... I'm sure you can tell what that means.

Right, let's get down to business. What requests do we have here?

nick_101 writes: "A snow ninja."

I'm not sure I know exactly what that is supposed to be. THIS IS WHAT YOU GET!!

gjo writes: "I guess I'd have to ask for Ryoko Subaru :)"

Very well then! Here she is roughly crammed into my, uh, "style," whatever that is.

belle_noiseuse didn't know what character she wanted! So I picked one that I know we both admire greatly. I HOPE THIS IS A SATISFACTORY CHOICE.

forddent also didn't know! After wracking my minimal brains for a while I pestered him on Gmail chat for some ideas, and he said something about Batman and something about The Dude. I still wasn't sure, so I decided to sleep on it... then promptly forgot about my doodling promise for several weeks. Then today I grasped at what I remembered and came out with this hybrid monstrosity. THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR BEING VAGUE!!!!!

atomic_cowgirl writes: "I'd like some sort of robot. Everyone likes robots, right? Well, not Luddites...or the Amish...or those people who think they're going to rise up and destroy us...but everyone else!"

In the spirit of hybrid monstrosities, you get an Amish Robot. ENJOY.

that_oneill_guy gave me three options: "1) Charles Foster Ofdensen (Metalocalypse), 2) Maka Albarn (Soul Eater), 3) A Dumbo octopus."

As I'm a huge fan of squishy aquatic things with tentacles, this would generally be a no-brainer... only I'd already drawn Ultros when I received this request. So for variety's sake you get this guy instead. I'm fairly certain that he means business.

Finally, jetli also did not know what he wanted. However, he did link me to Angels 2200 and say something about the character Whiskey reminding him of my characters. I still haven't actually read it so I don't know exactly what that says about me, but at any rate I decided to draw her for him because it involved minimal effort on my part.


Except, in contrast to my attempt to not be repetitive when it comes to octopi, she's actually looking quite similar to Ryoko. Well. Then. In my defense, they were drawn weeks apart. WEEKS!


In terms of life:
I have started a new unpaid internship. I'll talk about that more at a later date. For now I will say that it's fun! Very different from my last one. And it's part time, which means I have time for self-indulgent activities such as the following (and the above, I suppose).

I have thrown myself into working on my story. As always, it's as good and satisfying and beautiful a feeling as it is discouraging and terrifying (well, all right, no--the former obviously outweighs the latter, else I wouldn't be doing it. But they both factor in). I'm determined to finish by October. Right now I sort of have one foot in the editing stage, while still dedicating a whole bunch of time to rewriting large chunks to make everything cohesive.

It's so scary. Because I love these characters. They're extensions of myself by this point. I don't have writers block with these people; there's never a time where it's hard to write for them. A scenario pops in my head and their dialogue just spills out. It's like second nature to speak in their voices and to feel what they feel and think what they think. (One drawback is that I become very withdrawn when I work this hard with them because I'm too busy speaking to them all the time to be very good at socializing in the real world...)

The real problem is that I don't know that this is a worthwhile story to tell. Is it even a story? It's just me giving space and a voice to these people who grew up inside me and I've grown to love. I love them so much and I think you can tell that on the page but that doesn't mean it's compelling, interesting, worthwhile, whatever--I really have zero concept of this. It's scary to be so subjective.

I want to give them a reason for being. I feel they deserve that, only I have no idea if what I'm writing achieves that or not. In the end, anyone other than me who reads this might just feel like they're watching someone else's home movies? Hopefully not, but I'd like to be prepared for the worst.

Criticism, when it comes, will be very enlightening. And very heartbreaking. But that's just how it'll have to be. Trying to look at it this way: I know the characters are worth sharing, and they're what's at the heart of this. If the story isn't interesting to read then I haven't failed entirely, I've just failed at properly expressing what I know is there--and I'll just have to work harder at it. For the characters' sakes, of course.

...Now was that unbalanced enough for you? Jesus fucking Christ GET A GRIP
27th-Apr-2010 06:57 am (UTC)
Those are wonderful drawings. The snow ninja looks cute enough.
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